day 21

I have yet again completely lost track of a daily commitment as such, however even though this challenge will certainly take me longer than a year, I want to keep doing it.... I don't know, sometimes I feel stupid, writing this chain of messages to the internet, no one actually reading them or showing much response but what I do like is that it makes me think...

for example, this one DAY 21:  everything you wish for in a significant other
I find this question really tough, quite frankly, despite the fact that I don't consider myself an ignorant person, I don't even know what is really meant by 'significant other'? So I guess the way I can answer this question is take the meaning of significant other to be what I look for in the ideal person, you know, what I hope I can be? 

Maybe I can answer this by sharing my new year's resolutions.... I usually would never do this, I am a fairly personal person and currently my resolutions of in my tiny little journal locked away in my top drawer.. but then again, this is for me, I don't suppose many people, especially no one that I know are reading this. so, my resolutions:

1) TREAT OTHERS AS YOU WISH TO BE TREATED, so cheesy, right? But its still true, something I've always thought about cliches, we are constantly told not to use them in English class, however, the reason that they are a cliche to begin with is because they have been said many times, and the reason for that? Because they are true and wise. This year I hope that I can just half live up to the purity of one who treats others as they wish to be treated.... I must admit, I've had this resolution for a while now, but it gets hard rather quickly with the regular stress of school, and just life I guess.
2) STOP BEING JEALOUS, unfortunately I am a rather jealous person, in the way that I've often looked a pretty girls and wished I looked like that, or envied the success of a friend, that type of stuff.....I hope that does'nt make me out to be a horrible person, I promise I'm not, and I would never admit that I envy this stuff but again, its easy to get caught up in what other people have and what you don't. This year I hope to be completely grateful and satisfied with who I am, how I look and what I can do. 
3) BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD... another classic, I know... but this year, I really just want to make a significant difference. Living in South Africa has numerous perks, but I must say that occasionally when something tragic happens due to the result of poverty, it makes staying here harder than it seems. I really want to make difference in SA, I hope to make a small contribution to bettering the rather tough situations of many people living here. 
4) STOP BEING SCARED TO LIVE, so often I have kicked myself for being scared. I do not want to be a fearful person, scared to do so many great thing, go on incredible adventures just because I am scared of death, of the unknown.... I really hope that this year I can live to the fullest and seize every singe opportunity. 

I'm sorry that I drifted off, but I didn't really know how else to answer the question... chat soon.... but work on your own resolutions :) I don't know if you're out there, if anyone's reading this, but have an amazing 2013, I know I plan to.

- Caity xx

TWENTY

Day 20: what you think makes someone beautiful:

To me, beauty is not defined by the outside, but by who you are and how you treat others. Beauty is modesty, dignity, confidence and passion. Although, I am still a teenage girl and so yes, I look at certain girls and think they're pretty, it sucks, but we all judge without even realising it half the time. I don't really think it's necessary for me to write what makes someone beautiful on the outside because firstly, my view is so influenced by society's expectations and the media, etc (I mean who doesn't want to be thin, have beautiful bright blue eyes, long straight hair, clear skin, tanned, and the list goes on). And secondly, as I said in the beginning, beauty for me, is defined by who you are on the inside, way more than how you look. It may be your appearance that captures his attention but your personality that captures his heart. 

- Caity xx

DAY NINE-TEEN

Day 19: your thoughts on your family:

My family mean everything to me. I have a big family, there's my parents, me, my two brothers and my sister. I guess thats also just my immediate family. I know that I am so so lucky to have them. I love every single one of them and they do so much for me. Recently I went on exchange for 6 weeks and although I never expected it at all, I was incredibly home sick. I hate looking back on those times because I honestly felt so bitter, all I wanted was to be with them. And having an experience as such really made me realise how grateful I am for them. 

My family is my rock. I think that we all need our family because they are there for the good and the bad. After all blood is thicker than water.

- Caity xx

day EIGHTEEN

Day 18: why you made your blog, why you still have it:

I made this blog because I am the type of person who likes to express myself although I had tried all the things like journals and diaries, etc and only kept them up for a couple of weeks before I found them kind of pointless. So I made a blog and found that I really liked it. As for why I have kept it up, well firstly, I am doing this challenge and I don't want to stop halfway, I guess you could say I am the sort of person who wants to start what she has finished. But otherwise, I enjoy blogging. I have another blog, that sort of shares and discusses music (feel free to check it out) at http://music-is-my-gravity.blogspot.com but what I like about this one is that no one I know knows about it and so the only people (if any, I'm not sure) that read it don't know me, so it gives that sense of privacy, even though its a public site. 

- Caity xx

Day 17

Day 17: your idol and why you look up to them:

Can I be 100% honest....I don't know who my idol is yet. There are a number of people that I consider my role models like my parents, my gran and my friend Steph. However, I wouldn't yet say that I have an idol. I don't know.

- Caity xx

Day sixTEEN

Day 16: someone you trust:

I trust my best friend Steph. She knows everything about me, the good and the bad and she still accepts me for exactly who I am. We have been friends forever and are super close, but anyway, she is someone I trust with anything and everything. She is really such a great person who would never judge or criticise and I am so lucky that she is my bestie!

- Caity  xx

Day 15

Day 15: a song that makes you cry and why?

I couldn't possibly single out one only, because there are many songs that make me cry. Not always because I'm sad though, sometimes I've cried in songs because they are just really emotional or sometimes even because they are really happy, yes sounds a little crazy. I don't often cry in songs though, but one that seems to get me almost every time is:

'WHEREVER I GO" by Miley Cyrus.

Most people really don't like her, but I actually do and this is one of my favourite songs by her. It was actually written for Hannah Montana (her disney show) when Miley reveals that she is Hannah, but it is just such a beautiful, sad song. What I like about it, is that even though it is about leaving, forgetting and moving on, its also about accepting that it will always be a part of your and being excited about new beginnings. 

Take a listen and see what you think. Don't comment if you hate it though, please, because that's fine, its your opinion, but please rather don't rash on a song that I really like :) 

- Caity xx