Day 10: what you think when you hear the words “be yourself”?

To me, being yourself is one of the most important things everyone needs to accomplish in their lives. We all accept and grow to love who we are at some point in our lives, but it will come at different stages. I recently ran to be head girl for my school as next year in my senior/ matric year. This is a huge responsibility and although I really wanted it, it was only after the head girl, a really close friend who will do a great job, was announced, I realised this. The thing is that even though I do believe I would have done a good job, I do think that you need to be 100% comfortable with yourself and who you are to be a good leader, and this is actually something that i still need to work on, personally. I am not fully confident in myself and I still get really self-conscious about how I look and what people will think about me. It has got so much better and I am happy and learning to accept myself, be myself and not care too much about what everyone thinks, but I am still learning, aren't we all?

- Caity xx

Day NINE

before I start, maybe a quick explanation as to my essentially dropping off the grid with this challenge. So what happened is, as you know, I went to Italy for a 6 week exchange... but, while I was there my Mac broke, leaving me without a computer for that month. So I couldn't blog then and when I got home, although I could've used any of our house computers, I didn't want to continue without my laptop because I wasn't sure i could keep this up every day.... so anyway, I will start again now :)

Day 9: things that make you happy;

- dancing like a crazy person 

- belting out at the top of my voice when no one can hear

- drinking coke from movie cups with ice and a straw (yes so weird, I don't even like Coke much but the cup & ice make it)

- my friends

- my family

- the sun

- summer

- adventures 

- getting my monthly Seventeen

- trying new things

- feeling beautiful

- my cat

- holidays 

- sour sweets

- falling asleep to the sound of rain

- good dreams

- music

- playing guitar

- watching my series ( I am such a Tv junkie with series!)

- seeing my best friend

- being silly
- Buying new clothes/ shoes

- ice-skating

So many things make me happy, and I love being able to feel happy from some of the really small things in life. No one needs to know, but when I take a sip of my Coke in a movie cup with ice or snuggle with my cat whilst watching Pretty Little Liars, I can smile to myself and feel happy. 

- Caity 

8th DAY:

Day 8: things that make you sad.
- Death and illness
- War and conflict (especially when it involves the innocent)
- People being hurt
- Being away from my family
- Fighting with my friends
- Being insulted/ rejected
- Racism, prejudice, discrimination
- People's validation of basic human rights that we all deserve


Most of these are, I guess, technically the very typical, cheesy answers, but I tell you solemnly that each one is a true description of what truly upsets me....
This is a pretty bland topic to do today... but we live in the huge, crazy yet sometime super sad world when there are almost always going to be people who do stuff that they shouldn't and we cannot deny these things, they are a reality. But I think that sometimes, if we choose rather to be happy, we can try to find the joy in the situation (there usually is some) and the reason why we get through the day is because this tiny sliver of silver lining, is enough comfort just help us through. There is of course, not alway a silver lining, but if you choose to look for it, it will come to you, if you want it enough. 


- Caity xx

DAY seven

Day 7: a show or a movie that has changed you, and how?
This is really hard for me to answer as I cannot seem to think of any....
For the past hour or so while I have been doing other stuff, I have been thinking about it and I really don't know...its not even like I don't watch movies, and I am addicted to practically every TV series there is, but I don't think any have changed me, and who I am, maybe a few of them how I think, but only for a little while...
Ok well, a recent movie called THE HUNGER GAMES, really had an impact on me, it is about Katanis, a young girl who has to fight against other children and in order to save herself, she has to kill them... or let them kill each other, but honestly a sick concept, it truly disgusts me and makes me shiver every time I think about it. Now, this is not to say that I did not like the movie, it was brilliant, that is what had an impact on me, is that it could be so well produced, etc.. so this changed me for a bit and for ages I couldn't stop thinking about it, not by choice, but it has mostly passed...
Hmm, um, as for TV series, I don't think so, I watch them for entertainment, but I would be fine without them, I guess maybe just maybe Glee, has changed me a little. Because it has opened me to a whole lot more music and also it sort of urged me to join this very new Glee club at our school, which I got into to, and I absolutely love it, so maybe it encouraged me to do that, but I may have done so anyways... I don't know, probably nothing else...


Anyway, sorry that wasn't a very thorough and good answer :)
Maybe tomorrow will be better, chat then....
- Caity xx

Day 6.

Day 6: something you would like to change about yourself.
I am super tired cause it is really late here, so I am really glad that this one is easy.
Well, for me anyway.
My answer, plain and simple is nothing. 
This is not to say that I am perfect, not in the least, I have curly hair that can be a nightmare at times, I am not super thin, I am not always a good person, I have quite big feet, I am really tall, I mean , no one is perfect and at times, for all of these features, I have felt insecure and there were times when I have looked at other girls and thought, how I wish I had her hair or I was as pretty as her, but in all truth, if someone gave me that opportunity, I wouldn't take it because I was made just the way I am, for a reason. I wouldn't be who I am without all of me, including the features I sometimes fell insecure about. 
So, no, I am not perfect, but i would not change a thing.
Chat tomorrow....
- Caity xx

day 5...

Day 5: something you would change about the world.
Well here, my obvious answer is to stop conflict, slow down development that destroys the environment and have peace throughout, however, sadly, this does seem rather unrealistic, doesn't it?
I don't know, there is that song that says 'from a distance you look like my friend, even though we are at war, there are no guns, no wars, no disease and no hungry mouths to feed' (ps: stunning words of that song, called FROM A DISTANCE) so, yes, ultimately I guess in all honesty I would probably change the world by introducing world peace or getting rid of terrible diseases, etc you know, but this is still hard for me to write about because that cannot and will not happen. So the question is, is this answer meant to be realistic? Probably not. I think we live in a fantastic world, it is honestly beyond comprehension how beautiful it is, we are, the creatures and plants are, it boggles my mind that we can live here and that everything is so breath-taking...so physically, from a distance, I don't think I would change anything. Reality has a devious way of messing things up though and so I guess we kind of need to just focus on what makes us happy and what we wouldn't change because that is what will make us happy. You all know how disappointing that feeling of getting caught up in a daydream is and then you suddenly realize, no matter what, it won't happen, well for me, this is sort of what this question is like because most of the time, it cannot change anyway. I know I am sounding negative, and I don't mean to, I mean I do believe that we can eventually come to some sort of vague and fairly balanced agreement and peace amongst each other, but this is still some way away, I think, so for now I choose to focus rather on the joys of what we already have and accept and tolerate those that we can't...


- Caity xx

Day Four.

Day 4: how you think your life would change if you achieved your dream?
Wow, some of these are super intense questions! Well this is really hard for me to answer because I don't know what my dream is. Ok, well I guess my ultimate dream is simply to be happy, that's all I really want in the end, so if I was to achieve ultimate happiness, my life would change in many ways. It would probably mean that general living would feel a lot lighter and stuff, but the thing is that being happy, does not mean that there are no stresses or things that you worry about, I cannot even describe happiness, I mean what is it? So my life would change and I think definitely for the better, but the thing is that I am already pretty happy. I am so lucky and fortunate and I have an amazing support system, yes, there are many things I still want to experience and achieve, so the happiness from doing those will come with maturity and age, but for now, I am just glad to be here, right now, and to be exactly who I am. 


- Caity xx